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From in the Shadows....

This is my first ever page that i have ever put out onto the web,so keep that in mind,that this will be a little shady...
So I just might bore you some, and tell you a little about me.I am a 20 year old female,live on the east coast side...I am really into the "gothic lifestyle" It fits me and my personality wonderfully...I love poetry,reading it,writing it.I am currently working on my own book,so to say,it has short stories,my poems,all my ideas,and theorys that i jotted onto paper.So far it is going well...I am big into philosohpy,debating.I have been married for a year and some odd months to a wonderful guy.He is my everything, he is so very cool,he is my best friend...we fit together perfectly....I am big on animal rights,animal protection, anti-animal testing.I have 3 dogs,and 1 cat...but i am really into dogs..Feminism is a big part of me,the Riot GRRL scene,not all feminist are man haters, just keep that in mind! Everyone of my friends are guys....but i strongly believe in equality for everyone men,women,whites,blacks, every race,religion,gender...
I love to read,i will almost read everything i can get my hands on..Anne Rice is excellent,Poppy Z. Brite too..but i don't really keep up with authors,but i read alot of books,'zines,etc...
another obession of mine is music..i love music,I will list some a little later.
I am not currently in college now,but i would like to be one day soon.I am not sure of what i want to major in, thinking about either Literature or Journalism,and i definalty want to minor in photography.I do alot of personal freelance,like black&white photos alot,but most of my pics are either of my dogs, or my husband Ike....if anyone has any question, comments, ideas, rants, raves, feel free to contact me...i would love to hear what diffrent people have to say about this page...hope to hear from you...enjoy......blessed be..ZOe'

a little bit of my poetry.....

RUN RUN
as fast as you can
RUN RUN
until your feet go numb
RUN RUN
until your mouth is dry
RUN
until your chest aches for air
keep running
until you are dizzy,
the world spinning around you
RUN RUN
don't stop
keep looking up
don't ever look back
keep running faster
and harder
feeling the hard ground bruise
your feet
RUN RUN
from all your fears
RUN
from your past
RUN
until your lungs bleed
keep running
trying to ignore all your pain
RUN
until you just can't run
anymore
and when you finally
do stop
just for one minute
all that torment
was pointless
for it has already
caught back up
to you....
ZOe' c2000


It's strange how things
make people react.
Sometimes it only takes
one thing
to send everyone
into chaos
Noone knows what to do
everyone seperates themselves
more than ever before
They go their own ways,
not realizing that
running
dosent help the pain
to go away.
It just helps the memories
to fade faster.
There is noone
surrounding you from
your past
to help keep the memories
alive
So everyone has now
dissapeared.
Your past life is over
and you try to start a new.
But there is still a void....
a void that cannot be filled
no matter how hard you try..
When will you ever learn??
ZOe' c1999

i have many many more, but i am very leery of putting my work out for everyone to see...i havent let many people read them, much less anyone who wants too...if you would like to give me ideas, think they are good or don't really care for them, feel free to e-mail me..my contacts are at the bottom of this page....

SOME OF MY FAVE BANDS.......

SwItChBlAdE SyMphOnY..skinny puppy..DEAD KENNEDYS..mAzZy StAr..radiohead..BaBes in ToYlanD..THE CURE..cranes..JanE's AdDicTion..Joy DIViSion..TYPE O NEGATIVE..bAuhaUs..DeaD cAN DanCe..Tori AMos..aLiCe In CHainS..L7..bElLy..cRaNbErrIes..fAitH nO MorE..TOOL..sTevIe NiCks..London After Midnight..LoRDS of ACId..dEsCeNdeNts..7 SecOndS..MisFIts..sIouXie& the BANSHEES..MINDLESS SELF INDULGENCE..coNcRete BloNdE..the SmiTHs..my DYING bride..sIsTers of mERcy..fUgAZI.......i am sure there is more but right now i just can't think of them right now...

QUOTES..quotes..qUoTeS....

jealousy does more harm than witchcraft...german proverb

EVERYTHING HAS GOT A MORAL IF ONLY YOU CAN FIND IT...LEWIS CARROLL

dreamer of of dreams,born out of my due time,why should i strive to set the crooked straight?...william morris

DEATH FOR MANY OF US IS THE GATE TO HELL,BUT WE ARE ON THE INSIDE ON THE WAY OUT,NOT OUTSIDE ON THE WAY IN...GEORGE BERNARDSHAW

i felt out of step with everybody;it seemed there was no room for me in the world...cyndi lauper

MEN ARE READY TO RESPECT ANYTHING THAT BORES THEM..MARILYN MONROE

it is the beautiful bird that gets caged..chinease proverb

PEOPLE ARE LIKE STAIN GLASS WINDOWS.THEY SPARKLE AND SHINE WHEN THE SUN IS OUT, BUT WHEN THE DARKNESS SETS IN,THEIR TRUE BEAUTY IS REVEALED ONLY IF THERE IS LIGHT FROM WITHIN...UNKNOWN

i hate being on the outside looking in,but why is it that noone looks on the outside back at me? why i am afraid to speak outloud? maybe that's why i look into the glass at everyone and when i speak noone hears my screams?...ZOe' Ingraham

SURROUND YOURSELF WITH THOSE YOU LOVE
SURROUND YOURSELF WITH PATIENCE
EVEN IF IT IS ONLY ONE SOUL
MAKE THAT ONE SOUL YOUR EVERYTHING...ZOe' Ingraham

and all my days are traces
and all my nightly dreams
are where the gray eye glances
and where thy footsteps gleam
by what eternal streams...edgar allan poe

THE NIGHT HAS A THOUSAND EYES
AND THE DAY BUT ONE;
YET THE LIGHT OF THE BRIGHT WORLD DIES
WITH THE DYING SUN

THE MIND HAS A THOUSAND EYES
AND THE HEART BUT ONE
YET THE LIGHT OF A WHOLELIFE DIES
WHEN LOVE IS DONE...
F.W. BOURILLION

life is one damned thing after another...frank ward o'mally

I ARISE FROM DREAMS OF THEE
IN THE FIRST SWEET SLEEP OF NIGHT
WHEN THE WINDS ARE BREATHING LOW
AND THE STARS ARE SHINING BRIGHT...
SHELLY

if you have any quotes that you wouldnt mind to send my way, i will be forever grateful....

This is forever in memory of Obediah.....1981-1999.

Today it is raining, i love the rain,but today i just can't enjoy it...i usually am out walking in it or sitting out where i can feel the rain splashes tickle my face.But i just can't do that today.I am to sad to even play in the clouds,fog,wind and rain....today it has been one year since my best friend was found murdered....i still can't admit to myself that i will never see Obediah again, i try to tell myself that he is off on another trip again,he'll be home soon....but that dosent always work,i do know that i will never see him smile,or hear his laugh,never feel him holding onto me,give me a hug,never go out to the clubs with him,never sit on the plaza downtaown and smoke cigarettes with him,that has all been taken away from me.But i have to go and sit on his fucking grave today,pay my respects,not forget...the ice rain piercing my delicate skin,the wind ripping thru me like razors....the rain would be so beautiful any other day,but today it is not.I feel so all alone,he was my everything,my heart,my soul, my life.I feel as i too am dead.....

ZOe' Ingraham
written on april 16,2000